Vacation Insights


This past August, I traveled to England on my own and not only was it an AMAZING trip, it was a real eye opener for me. I learned so much about myself and all the great things I was capable of doing. You can say that this trip was a rite of passage for me.

So I just wanted to share some the writings that put down while I was there (not much though, I was traveling from place to place frequently). I hope you enjoy reading them!


August 8, 2016   

Well, I’m finally here again! I really didn’t think it hit me until I looked outside my hotel room’s window and saw the beautiful stonework and the scenic landscape. I’m finally back in England! Windermere to be most exact. As far as I can see, Windermere is a gorgeous  small town. I already feel relaxed here. The streets are a little narrow but what do you expect for a small town? I can’t wait to start exploring it tomorrow and see what Windermere has to offer.


August 20, 2016

I leave home tomorrow and sitting here on a pub terrace in Kingston, I can safely say that this is one of the best experiences of my life. I done so much on this trip, accomplished so many things, things I didn’t think was possible for me. And tomorrow , I land back in NY , Lord willing, back to all the problems and issues I’m ashamed to say I thought I would leave behind. It saddens me that I have to leave this beautiful country and most likely won’t be happy again until I return to it. It’s shameful that I had to leave the US in order to get peace and quiet.

Aira Force – (Penrith, UK)

Coming here also made me realize something: I need a change. I thought leaving Columbia was that change for me  but I don’t think it was. I believe it was a stepping stone. But is it wrong that you wan to switch from a job that you barely been in for a year? It is not like I hate my job. But there are days when I am so drained from doing anything else or I am so consumed with bring work home that I am incapable of doing anything else.Is this what a job suppose to feel like? Placing a full stop on doing what you love?

I miss talking about books with people. I miss looking at historical documents, even touching them. Sometimes, I shake with fear for what is waiting for me back home. If I hear “I need to use the computer”, “I need to print something”, or “Can I have a guest pass?” one more time I might scream.

I visited other libraries in London. I don’t know what it is like on  a busy day, but from
what I saw, it was peaceful and quiet, what a library should be. It really was a shock when there were more people reading than the ones on the computer. Like I said, I don’t know how it is everyday but I do like what I see.

Huge part of me feels like this is where I belong. But a small part of me doesn’t want to take that leap. This trip has really question my position, not only my job but my purpose in life. Where do I go from here? Why don’t I feel so fulfilled anymore? Is it me? Am I being ungrateful or am I not taking enough chances in life?

London Eye at night!


And there you have it. I know what made me decide to share this. With the upcoming new year and the uncertainty of it all, I guess I felt I needed to type all this out, maybe to see that I am not the only who feels this way. As life continues on, we always manage to question our purpose, one way or another.

But to not be such a downer, I’ll end this blog entry with some more pictures from my trip 🙂

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Published by karma2015

I was born and raised in New York. I still live in New York but kind of sick of the city and one day I wish to move to the UK.I have a Masters degree in Library Science and I currently work in a special collections library. I loved books ever since I was a little girl. Through the hard times in my life, my love for books has always gotten me through. Just entering another world different from my own intrigues me. As long as I am entering in another universe, I like to create my own as well. I love to write and hopefully I will be able to complete a novel.

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